Another year down and who knows how many more to go before my life is forfeit to the cycle of life. Each year it’s a little more apparent with relatives, friends, and acquaintances pass on. People my age are already having kids with one good friend just having her own. Used to seem like there was an endless expanse in which to play out my life’s ambitions until it was just right but these days that delusion has a few cracks in the glass. One day I might awaken to a completely different reality than once was known or could be seen.
Still young these things should bother me except for the fact that my youth is slowly ticking away along with everyone else’s and that at least puts me on common ground with the rest. Being able to imagine five years as a short period of time was once something that seemed inconceivable yet these days I’ll be nearing 30 in that amount of time. New ideas always bring with them new problems and it’s time to solve a few of these. In one year’s time my undergraduate degree will be done and it will be time to do something with my life. Whether what’s decided is to continue on with college, devoting more time to a girlfriend, or joining the peace corps, at least it’ll be something. Been watching life slip my eyes by for too long — it’s time thing’s change a little bit to maintain my sanity and happiness.
Someday I’ll figure it out. One step at a time. One at a time.